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Me: (closing my Bible) God, I keep trying to read Your Word…but I just don’t understand it all.
God: I don’t expect you to understand it all.
Me: Shouldn’t I get some of it? If I’m reading it, then I should be learning something.
God: You are learning something.
Me: I don’t feel like it. I just feel frustrated.
God: You’re putting too much pressure on yourself.
Me: What do you mean?
God: What were you thinking when you opened your Bible today?
God: Of course.
Me: I was rushed and knew I didn’t have a lot of time. I wanted to read, but felt frustrated because I wasn’t focused and didn’t know what I was reading.
God: And yesterday?
Me: It was different. I wasn’t in a hurry. I still didn’t understand what I was reading, but I felt calm. I felt like I was spending time with You even though we weren’t having a conversation, like we are now.
God: And you didn’t hesitate to talk to Me today. Why?
Me: I feel more comfortable now.
God: I want you to open your Bible—read and explore My Word—and spend time with Me. You won’t be able to make sense of everything you read. And I’m not asking you to try so hard. I will meet you where you are, and as I feel you’re ready, I’ll open the Scriptures to you. Little by little, you’ll find wisdom and understanding as you’ve never known before.
Me: So, even when I don’t know what the verses mean, I’m still spending time with You.
God: Yes. When you first meet someone, do you believe everything they tell you is true?
Me: Not always.
God: Do you feel comfortable and tell them everything you’re thinking and feeling?
Me: No, I have to trust them first.
God: Would you know that person’s voice if you didn’t see them speaking to you?
Me: No, not until I really knew them.
God: Like you’re getting to know Me now.
Me: (lightbulb moment) So, I’m learning even when I can’t explain it, and I’m getting to know you better every time I spend time with You.
God: That’s right.
Me: And You’re not waiting for me to figure it all out—You’re meeting me here…right where I am…everyday?
God: Yes. I AM.
Me: (big smile) Thanks God.
Lord, thank you for meeting us where we are…for speaking to us individually in ways You know we’ll hear…and for continuing to reveal who You are to us. Thank You for not expecting us to figure it out all on our own, but instead, giving us wisdom and understanding as You know we’re ready. Please continue to draw us closer to You every single day, and let us never lose the desire to spend time with You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Keep reading, keep searching, keep exploring…He will meet you where you are.