Thursday, August 14, 2014

Because Some Lessons Have to Be Relearned


And then a few days ago, I ignored my own words.

It started with an e-mail I received. It asked me to choose a date for a specific opportunity I was already involved in. There were only so many dates available, on a first-come, first-served basis, and from the e-mail chain in front of me, I was apparently the last to speak up.

I knew better than to get worked up over it…but I did anyway.

From what I could tell, all of the dates were spoken for. I had chosen not to spend my day online, and for that, I had missed out. And I fumed.

I knew God had it under control, but I couldn’t seem to get myself under control. Actually, I don’t think I even tried.

I was sure I’d been left out of something I’d been involved in for years, and I let my emotions fuel my nasty thoughts.

I told myself that it might be part of God’s plan for me. Maybe it was time to move on to whatever was next. The problem was, I had no idea what that might be, so I started feeling sorry for myself.

I kept checking my e-mail waiting for a reply, knowing that it would confirm what I thought I knew. And while I continued to stew about it, I grew snippy with my family.

I’m sure they were less than thrilled to be around me because I didn’t even want to be around myself.

And then, I received the reply I was waiting for. But it wasn’t what I was expecting. It didn’t say what I’d already chosen to believe. Instead, it confirmed that I already had a place.

I ignored common sense and my belief that peace comes through trusting God, choosing to walk the path of negativity instead of possibilities.

God had it under control, but I decided to fume rather than to trust. And because I failed to trust, I was far from experiencing His peace.

I had apologies to give and forgiveness to ask for—from God and my family. And a post to write—because lessons are easily forgotten (or ignored) and have to be relearned. Over and over.

And over again.

In Christ,
Laura 



10 comments:

  1. I know those relearning truth moments all two well. Definitely humbling, but faith building, too.

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  2. Trust is a lesson I have to relearn on an all too frequent basis!

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  3. Oh Laura, it's the place I go too. I love how you share your walk both here and at 5MfF. Enjoy a blessing-filled weekend. You certainly bless me.

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  4. Bahhhh-- I HATE it when that happens! (And it happens to me more than I would like to admit.) I get all worked up over something that God totally has control over, take it out on those around me and then wouldn't you know it-- God always works it out for the best.

    I believe that learning to trust as we journey in faith is a lifelong experience...

    Thanks for sharing this over at #EverydayJesus. Blessings!

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  5. yes yes been there too. over and over again the same lessons. I like to think life is like a spiral, yes we come to the same places but hopefully at just a better angle. guess I am the optimist! LOL

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  6. So been there and done that! Just caught myself doing it recently as I started to think about some great opportunities that have come my way for a moment and then dried up. I was tempted to think I had missed out because of this or that--oh and it can make you grumpy. I'm not wishing that on you, but I am glad that I'm not the only one who gets caught in the negative.Visiting from Blessing Counters.

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  7. Hi Laura! I think we all can relate to this! But it is so important to be honest about, so thank you very much for sharing! We all have to learn over and over again stuff we really thought we were done learning. Especially when our emotions are involved. It can be really hard not to let our emotions overwhelm us, this is something I struggle with everyday. Our flesh is weak but that is where God can show us His grace. That is where He can show us how strong He is in our weakness.

    God bless your heart!
    -Ava Sophie

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  8. Presently I have a need to ask for forgiveness of a friend.
    God is growing me because my first response is to run.
    I would change churches, running from the situation.
    All my life I have made a practice of running.
    This time I want to go with the Spirit of God and ask for forgiveness.
    There is no guarantee what the turn out will be, but no running.

    May God Bless You!

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  9. Lessons learned...and again. The "evil surmising" is listed as sin in 1 Timothy. A lesson I'm learning...sometimes failing and relearning. (Probably why I ended up next to you at Counting My Blessings.) I'm thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who never gives up on us. ~Pamela

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  10. Laura, I have so been there. Matter of fact, I've been there just this week, about a situation that is out of my control, appears out of control. I want to trust God, and I say that I do. But my attitude and actions say otherwise. Thank you for sharing the lessons you are learning along your journey. They encourage me!

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Thank you for sharing your thoughts!