Last week I wanted to be frustrated with God.
I’ve grown tired of one-step-forward good days being followed by three-steps-backward bad days. And I want to know why.
I told God I was frustrated with Him. And as I stood at the kitchen sink washing dishes, I asked Him, Where are You?!?
At that moment I saw new purple flowers had bloomed on the African violet that sits in my kitchen window. Five perfectly formed violet flowers with tiny yellow centers…and I saw Him there.
It’s not where I’ve been begging to see Him, but it’s His beautiful work regardless. And, it reminds me that His ways are not my ways, and His time isn’t mine.
I want to be frustrated with God, but somehow I can’t be. My emotions say I am, but my head and my heart refuse to agree. Because I know better.
I know it’s what the enemy wants—for me to think God is not for me, but against me. That assumption can happen quickly when discouragement and anger grow.
I look at the purple blooms and realize it’s not God I’m frustrated with, but rather life and our humanness.
It’s illness and disease.
It’s strained and broken relationships.
It’s trauma and tragedy.
It’s that we often turn to God as a last resort, instead of our first thought.
I don’t understand His ways or His timing, but it’s not for me to know. He’s working on things I can’t even imagine, and I can only see what surrounds me.
What I know is I believe in miracles and the impossible…because that’s where God works.
I know I believe in Hope because I believe Jesus died for our sins and conquered sin and death when He rose from the grave.
I believe Jesus is Hope.
I want to be frustrated with God because He knows and sees it all. He is in control.
But, it’s really life and this world we live in that I’m discouraged with.
I know I can’t be frustrated with God because He does know. He sees what we’re going through and He cares. He is in control, and through Jesus, there is Hope.
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