Change has been going on around me lately, and it’s been hard to see what it will look like when the dust settles. It’s not change of my making, so there is uncertainty of how it will affect me, as well as others.
Maybe you’re there too…waiting to see what the upcoming days will look like…standing by until everything settles down and a new normal begins…fighting the feeling of not being able to control anything.
…a new boss.
…a job transfer away from family and friends.
…layoffs and unemployment.
…the diagnosis and future check-ups.
…separation and divorce.
Change, whether personal or work-related, is unsettling. It creates questions that can’t be answered right away. It puts us in wait-and-see mode.
I don’t particularly like wait-and-see because it gives me time to imagine different scenarios, which cause me to worry and grow negative. It gives me time to get stressed out before anything has actually happened.
That’s how I started waiting. It was easy to grumble because others were grumbling with me. And when I was alone, I stewed. I complained under my breath, and to God.
And then I realized a couple of things. One, I didn’t like what it was doing to me. Frankly, I have enough to deal with this year without adding something else that hasn’t even happened yet.
Second, and more importantly, I realized that if this change is something which God has brought about, who am I to question it?
I knew I needed a change of heart and attitude—and it wasn’t something I could just convince myself of.
I needed God to change my heart and my attitude.
I laid it before Him and I prayed. Then, because I tend to take things back, I gave it to Him again and kept praying.
And I felt something start to change. I started to relax.
Nothing in the situation had changed yet. The unsettled dust was still thick and impossible to see through, and I was still in wait-and-see mode with others.
But God was there. I had invited Him in and He was at work—starting with me.
I stopped worrying and started wondering if the what-ifs would be positive instead negative.
I kept Romans 8:28 in front of me…
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. Romans 8:28 NLT
And I reminded myself of the times I’ve seen God bring something good from a situation that seemed bad—especially things that have happened this year and how they worked together. I couldn’t see it at the time, but in hindsight, the pieces fit together perfectly…as only God’s plans can.
I felt God changing my attitude. I was seeing things from a positive perspective…both in the situation, and in my growth with Him.
And I felt God changing my heart. I know that not all change is what I would like to see happen, but I know I can trust Him. If the change that comes about is not in my favor, then God has something different planned for me. Something He hasn’t shown me yet.
And where that normally brings fear, I felt peace and comfort.
Have you gone through a time when you knew change was coming, but you couldn’t see what it would look like? How did you walk through it, and did you feel God walking along side of you?
Photo credit: K. Rath, Oct. 2014